It's funny how we think something is going to be one way and then when that time comes it's nothing like we planned. When I was pregnant I said " I'm going to breastfeed with no problem because I won't substitute with formula or give her a binky. Also I'm going to nurse her within 1 hour of her being born." Well, my daughter was born Jan 17, 2010 at 5lbs 11oz. I didn't get to nurse her within that hour like I planned. She was so sleepy from all the meds that they gave me for my c-section that she didn't wake to eat until 1:12 am (she was born 1:36pm) She was always latched yet she was losing weight like crazy. I felt like I was doing something wrong. I even had thoughts that I might just HAVE to give her formula even though I didn't want to. It didn't help that when we went to her weight check just 5 days after she was born she was now 4lbs 13oz. It broke my heart thinking that my milk wasn't doing it for her. I'm glad that I had a cousin and an aunt to talk to they were reassuring and made me have that boost again.. Yes, I knew I could do it! Well, she started gaining weight slowly but it didn't matter she was packing on the ounces!
I feed her when she wants. I don't care about minutes and the time anymore. The only thing that I need to get down is what side she was on last. Since she eats so often I never remember! We did it and I wouldn't change anything. This way when I do have another one I will be prepared just in case this happens again.
Another thing is I was so worried about her not having a crib when I found out I was pregnant with her. My son didn't have one and slept in a playpen. He wouldn't go to sleep if anyone was around. If Shelby or I were holding him he would just cry until we swaddled him and put him in his playpen with then lights off and the door closed. He HAD to have his heartbeat music therapy CD on also (until 2yrs) without it he wouldn't sleep! Well, I wanted her to have a crib and not have to sleep in a playpen. One of my aunts let me borrow one that they had for her grandson Eddie. A friend of mine from church gave me a bedding set also. I thought she was going to go to sleep in there every night and for naps. Since that's the way Eddie Rey was. It didn't happen like that. She is my high need baby who LOVES to be held 24/7. I don't even sleep in our room. I have a new bed in there for me as well as her crib. Her and I sleep in the recliner in the living room. It's just so much easier when she wants to eat to just feed her there. I've tried sleeping in my bed with her and she doesn't like me feeding her laying down. So, there is no use in us even having a crib!
I also wanted to have a nice pretty little swing for her. It even matches her bedding! She NEVER wants to be in there. The longest she was willing to be in there was 2 min if that!
I have a bassinet that a friend let me borrow..of course she doesn't sleep in it. I have junk in there now! Her playpen that we have that has a bassinet in it and changing table is still folded up and in the closet.
Like I said there were so many things that I had planned out to go a certain way. She is so much different than her sisters and brother. :) It's ok though.. I love her all the more for it! I know she is going to surprise me her whole life! :)